Friday, July 20, 2018

Inside Out based on my emotions

Sometimes it’s hard for me to express joy out of all my emotions due to the fact that it’s not that I’m not happy but sometimes my mind wonders out, to much daydreaming for me. Sometimes I cannot concentrate cause something is always in my mind. Sometimes I can have a good time but my expression shows sadness for some reason.

Sometimes my expressions cause me trouble because people confuse when I’m tired then when I am mad. According to my girlfriend I make the same face. After school i'll be driving my girlfriend home and all of the sudden I hear “Are you mad?” I was like no I’m just tired I have to reassure her like five times that I am not mad. Then I get upset cause she never got the point that I was just tired.

The five basic emotions would be, anger like I said before people think that I’m mad when I am just tired, sadness is always around for some reason I think my brain is being manage by blue most of the time, joy is hard for me to show it I don’t know why, Fear I show it like I’m angry I get mad when I am afraid, discus is the last one that emotion does not let me eat seafood.

I still have a long way managing my anger, I come a long way since I got out of high school back then I would let any other thing set my anger on fire. Unfortunately that was only way I knew how to handle conflict. I stop seeing my mom’s soap operas and that have help me a lot.

Anger usually fire up when there was a power play in the house hold, when the dad tried to get the daughter, Riley to eat the broccoli since the dad is being manage by the anger emotion it cause a spiral to occur in-between both of them.  

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

Mafia vs Sheriff

In the mafia vs serif game, there's a big group of people that sit together in a circle the spokesperson handles each player a card from a poker deck, if you get a jack you are in the mafia but if you get an ace card you are a sheriff, any other card makes you a civilian. Each player keeps their card a secret In each round the spokesperson narrates the place of the location and the time. If the spokesperson says it's nighttime hole group closes their eyes and pretend to go to sleep during nighttime the spokesperson tells mafia to wake up the silently the mafia opens their eyes and choses someone to take out hoping it's a sheriff. After the mafia group its instructed to go to sleep the sheriff group is instructed to wake up and they all vote off a person to take out. During the day the hole group wakes up and the spokesperson narrates who the mafia killed and who the sheriff took out. During the day stage of the round they also dominate three people and with votes one of them gets hang.
As a disciple of God I have bump in to other that are just there for the wrong reasons like the mafia. I have also seen people pointing fingers trying for everyone to be in line and for everything to be fair. God wants us to act justly. “With what shall I come before the Lord and bow down before the exalted God? Shall I come before him with burnt offerings, with calves a year old?  Will the Lord be pleased with thousands of rams, with ten thousand rivers of olive oil? Shall I offer my firstborn for my transgression, the fruit of my body for the sin of my soul?’ Offerings must come from the heart. (Micah 6:6‭-‬7 NIV) Yes as a disciple God wants us to obey his commands and teach others to obey but how do we go about treating others around us? As a disciple I don’t want to be there for the wrong reasons I want to be there because I have given my heart to him. We must love mercy. “He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”(Micah 6:8 NIV) Meaning that God sees all and forgives all that seek forgiveness so you must not discourage those who mest up and instead of isolation you must invite them to fellowship and encourage them with mercy. As a disciple you must also walk humbly, “The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’ (Matthew 25:40 NIV) As a disciple you must be helpful to other because God will ask you for your actions on earth when your time comes. When one is not giving offering one must have the heart to be helpful whether to be a Usher or offer help to other brothers or sisters that have trouble getting to service.
Yes as a disciple one must aim to be somewhat like the civilian in the mafia vs sheriff game because they are the ones that don’t point fingers but do chose to participate and try and be helpful. Because you must know where your walk with God is and if you know that others are not doing good you must be helpfull only if they seek it from you and when they do help them with mercy and lovingly.       


Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Handicap Minivan Experiences

I drive anywhere feeling like a teenager that just got his first car, but of course I am 25 years old. Why did it took me so long to get a vehicle? Well as a handicap individual, you usually spend a couple of year convincing your family that is safe that you have the same risks as anyone to get in a car wreck.
 When you are a handicap person and  you own a minivan (Town & Country Chrysler 2014) you tend to feel free. I drive anywhere I want, well anywhere my budget allows me anyhow.  But on pay day I’m always going to the bar to play some pool and drink a beer with some friends. I drive to school and work I became a “awesome person, some one that amazes people/promoter” People always see me and say that what I do is awesome or ask me about the van and tell me where did I get it cause they need one for their grandpa or old father. Sometimes when I go out with my girl, which she is also handicap, we tend to get free food sometimes. Like the chef from the school gave us free sushi and a couple of rolls. As far as school I drive myself there. On the weekends I even make hobbies outside of the house. Alejandro, one of my best friends, and I have been talking to each other about doing an art show in a gallery in Brownsville. I manage to get an exhibition for our paintings in a cultural center close to my old university at Brownsville. It was fun driving over there and setting up the gallery and driving around promoting the art show. I guess now I see why my parents use to call the minivan a luxury thing that I don’t need. But now I think they see that it was a need because now they are able to accomplish more tasks without having to worry about driving me to other places.
           The only main issue here in the valley is the parking spaces. People don’t respect the some handicap spaces are mainly for vans. It is a drag to go to Wal-Mart and see that someone with a car that could have parked in a regular handicap space is parked at a space designated mostly for vans. A couple of times I am force to park at a regular handicap space and someone blocked the side where the ramp for my wheelchair comes out. It would be handy if someone design a ramp that can come out either side of the van. That would be the best solution for it. Another possible solution, is to divide the handicap permits in to different digress. For Example, where people can park on the regular handicap parking space other where only van or mini vans can park.

       Yesterday I went out with my girlfriend, Elizabeth, to eat. I went early to her work place at the Student Union of now called UTRGV (University of Texas at Rio Grande Valley) I waited for her for a couple of hours but I didn't mind because my BFF the laptop was with me. I played Starcraft 2 the hole morning it was a blast. 
          Anyways, I do not know if I have mention Elizabeth before but she is a sweet girl although ever time I tell her that I love her, she rarely says it back. Elizabeth has a condition called Cerebral Palsy that it is a condition that affect the movements of the body and body coordination. This can occur while a child is being developed or with an injury. Although this sounds serious is can be treated manageable, so the person with the condition can be more independent luckily for my girlfriend this is the case she has a little machine implanted that is always giving her medicine, because of that she rarely get spasms and they cant be notice. Although the medicine helps he a lot she still has to use a wheelchair because of her feet. 
        I been bugging Elizabeth to let me teach her how to drive. I think driving will open a lot of doors for her just how it happen to me, I want her too feel what I feel when I am behind the wheel. No, I'm not referring to the irritation of people driving like crazy on the highway. I'm referring to the taste of freedom from public transportation and rides that a person with disabilities depend on 100%. After she got out of work I notice that there was an empty parking space since we did not had anything to do so, I told her to get behind the wheel. It took us a while to try and figure how to sit her in the right position to reach the steering wheel. Although she did several mistakes like getting on the sidewalk, she did fine. I think a couple of more tries and she will be a pro.   
So far, the van has been very useful I go to school, dates, work like any other person, it is like I have been set free into the world of independence. I love my van I treated like a part of me now i depend on it a lot and I know it would be there as long as i give it maintenance. 
I put up my relationship with Liz this past year to work on my relationship with God, A year ago I bump in to and old friend and he invited me to a bible study after that its been a long journey after that. Thank God Liz decided to work on her relationship with God as well and now almost a year me and Liz are back together.
Now ever time I tell her that I love here she always says that she loves me more. It is almost going to be a year for my spiritual birthday, although I feel that I still have much to learn.