Tuesday, February 10, 2015

Substitute Teacher

      I have an associates in communications, and almost done with my bachelors in communications studies. Part of my Disability is that it’s hard for me to communicate, because my voice is distorted. I do not know why is it like that I just know that ever since I was a kid I had to develop my nonverbal communication a lot more than any other person. If I want I could predict what someone was going to say even before they are going to say it. This ability has kind of help me understand, when I’m working as a substitute, what kind of teacher the students have. Without even knowing the teacher.
      I did not confirm this theory until I started to tell the students at the end of the day what kind of teacher they have. They usually tell me, how did you know? Its not really that hard to tell what kind of teacher they have. I start from a low voice and then I raise my voice and tone according to how the students respond. The students behavior tells me everything. 
       This experience made me realized that I am not made for teaching. I just do not see my self being a teacher in the near future. It is a lot of responsibility to teach. I think that only people with a passion to teach should pursue this career. Teaching is a skill that we all have inverted in our DNA but not every one enjoys it.
      Yesterday I started Working again as a Substitute, I substituted for a coach for elementary the first to hours went kind of slow. Since I'm in a wheelchair I could not help the other coach with the routine on the exercises for the lower grades. I felt bad in letting the other coach do the routines by her self. I kind of decided to keep an eye on the kids making sure they do the routines. It help but still I still felt useless. After the lunch brake for the #rd, 4th, and 5th graders classes. We played volley ball with a big ball that you could also bounce it. with that I did help It was fun helping my team win against the other coach's team. Although I did came with some issues with some co-workers I stop letting that go to my head. Behind the door of the lunch room for teacher a lot of drama and gossip can happen. I got annoyed on how a group of teachers were gossiping about a poor student. Then I remember a video that I saw during my training as a sub, that said to keep away from those kind of educators for I finished my food and left to wait at the school's gym. It's very unprofessional to gossip about a student in the teaches lunch room. Unless you are asking about advise for one of your students you should not talk about them.
     Today at work on my way to the high school classroom I was horrified three fights broke right near me. It was like a domino effect. Since I'm handicap I felt scared and yet useless I wish I could have stop the fight but I could not. Talking about feeling useless then there was no security near people were hitting each other and no one was there to supervise.